numb.

i had a feeling last night that i’ve never felt before.

i was suffocating, gasping for breath as my chest convulsed in nightmarish ways.

the thoughts that raced through my mind crippled me to a state of such disarray i couldn’t pull myself from.

numbed to my pain, powerless. i had no choice but to lay there and let it consume me. pulling me down, far past any sense of hope.

and in that moment, i felt utterly withdrawn. i felt neither here nor there nor present at all.

i could feel my entire body rattling.

my arms, tightening their grip.

my heart, screaming to be held.

and my eyes, washed away with these blurred perceptions of a world i once recognized.

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